| Beat me to it |
[31 Aug 2007|09:28am] |
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You have no idea how long I contemplated doing that.
I'll miss you.
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[13 Sep 2006|10:03pm] |
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I dunno who'll actually be able to make it, but I've got the house to myself for the weekend. So Friday I'm going for a party, you're all invited, try to all get here. Haha, hopefully it'll turn out as well as last time.
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| And So It Begins |
[04 Sep 2006|10:08pm] |
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Forever |
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Today I emptied out my school bag. It hadn't moved in my room since I got home from my final exam and threw it into the corner (literally). Taking out all my old binders and putting in all my new ones sucks so much. School sucks.
I want people back. I want late nights every night back. I want freedom back.
I want summer back, and the sad part is, school hasn't even begun.
Good luck to everyone, by the way. I'm sure none of you need it, but it couldn't hurt. And have fun living wherever your living, going wherever your going, or doing whatever your doing.
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| It was a beautiful place to have an epiphany |
[17 Aug 2006|11:35am] |
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Kryptonite - Three Doors Down |
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Nic's cottage is a great time. Sometimes it's nice to get away from everything and everyone (almost) and just relax. Sitting on the lawn chair on the floating dock, holding Boot, and looking up at the night sky was one of the most peaceful things I have ever experienced. There wasn't a cloud in the sky, and the stars were amazing. We could distinctly see the Milky Way, and each of us saw at least one shooting star every night. To top it all off, there was the howling of wolves and crying of a loon in the distance.
Now I feel that I have to clarify, to both of you, as I'm sure you'll both see this. I'm still me, and I'll always be me. And I know a lot... probably more than I should. Now, despite what anyone might think, it all affects me in one way or another. It could be something I like, or just as easily something I don't. Generally speaking, I can swallow pretty much anything. That's one of the things I'm good at. Sucking it up, so to speak.
I know you two of all people can understand this. Probably better then most others, seeing as how much you've gone through this. Everyone has a weakness somewhere, myself included. This is one thing that I really can't swallow. It's like one of those Goddamn double cheeseburgers that just sit in you're throat. You can still breathe, but it hurts and you can't really wash it down without choking. (I love it all the same - how often do I NOT get a double cheeseburger?)
When all is said and done, I'm not trying to act or be different. But sometimes, probably more often than not (when company's three), I'm going to be. I apologize, what more can I say?
I'm still me, though.
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| And then you really might know what it's like |
[13 Aug 2006|11:45am] |
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What It's Like - Everlast |
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Warped Tour was amazing, as always. I think this one was the best of the three that I've been to.
I'm really just updating because as of today I am going up to Nic's cottage with Matt for a couple days. So that's where I am. I'm sure my cell will still work up there, but in case it doesn't, I figured I'd tell you.
It still pains me. And this is the trigger.
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| Second swing, and still, it's repetition |
[17 Jul 2006|06:53pm] |
Alright, due to complications, there will not be another party at my house until Friday. Grandparents are coming for a couple days.
That's all I really have to say at the moment. I'll update properly for the first time in ages later. Haha.
But yea. Friday. Not Thursday. Friday.
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| I can't believe it's still 6 days until soccer |
[06 Jun 2006|11:22pm] |
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Our Sick Story (Thus Far) - Atreyu |
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So I come home, feeling rather shitty, and the first thing that instantly appears when I sign online reads, "DEWEY DWEY!!!". Made me smile. Thanks man.
It'll all work out.
I'm proud of myself.
--Added-- Oh dear God. Run. Run run run run run run run.
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| Who Brings This One Up? |
[29 May 2006|07:39pm] |
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My Last Serenade - Killswitch Engage |
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"Chair motions for attendance."
"Okay, attendance. Greg?"
"Here"
"Mark?"
"Here"
"Dewey?"
"Present"
"Ramsay?"
"Yup"
"Nick?"
"Here"
"And myself... Check."
"Chair requests recount of the last Cabin Council meeting."
"We discussed the sleeping situation, as well as... etc."
"Chair opens up the to the floor. Dewey?"
So many amazing memories from this weekend, and absolutely no bad ones. Simply an all-around great time. We need to talk though. You and I, and you and I.
"All in favour of this notion?"
"Yay" "yay" "Yay" "Yay" "yay" "Yay"
"All opposed?"
"Nay"
"Who keeps saying that?"
Good times.
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| We're not stunning... we're just stunned |
[24 May 2006|10:05pm] |
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The New Black |
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Baby, you got me all wrong. And maybe I'm not down and out. I'm high and I'm in.
If everything I do is wrong, then by God I do it right.
Well, if loving me is wrong, then Goddamn you do it right.
What an amazing song.
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| Walking Around the Brick Wall |
[22 May 2006|08:15pm] |
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Numb - Linkin Park |
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I'm stuck. It's actually kinda weird how it works, because there's a way to get un-stuck in clear site, but I can't get to it. Even when I try, I can't. Physically or mentally. It's actually really frustrating.
Three different people have tried telling me the same thing about this, and yet I don't believe them. People speaking for other people has never really worked for me. Not to mention, two of them are defenders and the third simply says what betters their position.
I'm going to figure this one out. I hope you know what's coming, because if you don't, your gonna be hit a hell of a lot harder. I've tried my hardest, and you still you stand strong. At this point I'm drawing dead. I lose. I fold. Maybe I'll fare better on the next hand. And I will not go on tilt.
What people say and what people mean are two completely different things. It's probably good advice to look for the latter.
I'm wrong as often as the next person, but when I say something, I'm not. If I say one thing, it doesn't mean I don't see or mean something else. Somehow I don't think you know that. Sometimes it's better to look oblivious anyway.
On the other hand, this was a really good weekend. I've never been to a party like the one that we went to, turned out to be great times. If the oppertunity arises, I'm going again for sure. Not to mention Carter owning Sacred in the poker competition. Congrats to Ramsay, he was kinda key. (I would have seen you in the finals if not for that Goddamn ace). And then last night at Rob's was pretty good too.
Now we have afterprom only a week away. It'll be God, I can't wait.
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| Read Like A Book |
[22 May 2006|12:10pm] |
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The Boy That Blocked His Own Shot |
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Hahahaha.
"I'm drunk, I'm not stupid."
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| Waiting until the upper hand is mine |
[17 May 2006|03:44pm] |
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Well, all of the new applications were sent out as of yesterday. I really hope I get accepted, some of the programs are exactly what I wanted. By some fluke chance they're still accepting for this September and I somehow have all the requirements met. Who knew that colleges require university credits? Anyway, I figure from there I could go into university if I want to, or whatever else happens to be in my interests. As long as I don't have to come back to Carter. At first it seemed like it would be fun, but I've changed my mind. I can't stand it there anymore.
We'll see what happens, I guess. I'll survive.
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| I didn't say it because I didn't want to. |
[24 Apr 2006|03:43pm] |
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I hate report card time. I don't care at all what my marks are like, they are what they are. But I hate the pressure and the comparing and the bitching and the bragging. I'm glad I can say that none of you do that. (Don't get me wrong, theres a huge difference between being proud of them and being arrogant about them)
We need another baseball practice, and I'm looking at you, Jim. It's becoming more and more fun, surprisingly. Though that might just be based on the fact that I can now hit. Sorta.
I told you that this time it's all on you, and the very fact that I've written this puts it back on me. That, and the fact that you didn't pull at all in the first place, leads me to believe this is the end. And for it not to be, you'd have to pull pretty damn hard. I look left, you go right. Good luck, and I'll miss you.
Finally, somehow we have to come up with a good and solid idea for that movie. Those ideas we came up with would be so good. Unfortunately my computer crashed once again, and I lost everything I wrote down, but I still remember the two, in my opinion, best ideas we had. It'd be a fun movie to make, and it could turn out really good. We're intelligent people, we're capable of it.
And, uhh..., I think that's all for now. Another bonfire on Friday?
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| To three of the greatest guys I know... |
[09 Apr 2006|09:21pm] |
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Haha Nick I was waiting to do one for the three of you. But whatever, I'll do it today. Happy birthday Nick! Happy Birthday Greg! Happy Birthday Jim!
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| I'm shouting, "Go on without me!", and you can barely hear me from way back there |
[09 Apr 2006|06:41pm] |
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The Wicked End - Avenged Sevenfold |
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Leaving an open door. This is a different type of prediction, becuase I'm not sure of the answer yet. It's really more of a learning experience. Only problem is that it is gonna take a hell of a lot of willpower on my part, and we all know that I lack that. Hopefully I can manage it.
So Caitlin, I believe we're at the halfway point of the two weeks. I stand by it.
Lucky Number S7even was a great movie. I highly suggest it to everyone, it keeps you thinking and guessing, and in the end all falls together and doesn't leave you questionning it. In general. Anyway, yes, it's a great movie.
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| I'm a fool |
[03 Apr 2006|12:02am] |
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Inside Out - Eve 6 |
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I would swallow my pride.
I would swallow my doubt.
Find nothing but faith in nothing.
But the title says it all. It's a great song.
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| I can see right through |
[01 Apr 2006|12:32am] |
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I really dislike fakes. And liars. And particularly those who tell two people two completely different answers to the same question, thinking they are both to caught up on honesty to see the middle ground. I think I'm beginning to see it. Everything you say I'm taking with a grain of salt from now on. Because, let's be honest, all your intentions are good, whether your telling #1 to me or #2 to the other.
Whoever says that honesty is the best policy is a liar. Whoever disagrees with him is one as well.
Try to keep that dagger outta my back, please.
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| c-c-c-c-c-combo |
[25 Mar 2006|12:18am] |
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Sweet sweet silence. |
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Amazing show. Words fail me. Protest the Hero and The Bled are Gods.
Very eventful night. I didn't realize how much fun it could be to piss off so many people. We're all just way too intimidating, I guess.
Good times.
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